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dogriverDear Lord, I know I have a lot to be thankful for. I know you have blessed me immeasurably, and I know how grateful I should be. I know so many people around me are hurting, I know many people would be thrilled to have all that I have.
Yet I find myself coming to you today struggling to feel grateful, losing the battle.
Lord, I feel as though I have to fight for everything these days. Every little bit of forward progress takes a Herculean effort, and I'm not srue how much mental and emotional energy I have left, I'm not sure how much more I can give. I feel that the world is an impersonal, cruel place, and yes, I feel as though you have abandoned me too, although I know this isn't the case.
And to make things even worse, I feel so guilty for not being grateful, for whining, for daring to wish my life were better than it is.
Lord, let me thank you for all that you have given me, done for me, and promised me. And let me please find the ability to mean it. Help me to be truly grateful, even though right now I don't feel it. Please work some miracles in my life, Lord. Give me the ability to keep pressing forward, to continue striving, to continue the race, even if I feel I've completely depleted my endurance and ability to cope. I am so weak, Lord, help me to rely on you in my weakness. And forgive me when I whine.
Through Christ I pray, amen.
Yet I find myself coming to you today struggling to feel grateful, losing the battle.
Lord, I feel as though I have to fight for everything these days. Every little bit of forward progress takes a Herculean effort, and I'm not srue how much mental and emotional energy I have left, I'm not sure how much more I can give. I feel that the world is an impersonal, cruel place, and yes, I feel as though you have abandoned me too, although I know this isn't the case.
And to make things even worse, I feel so guilty for not being grateful, for whining, for daring to wish my life were better than it is.
Lord, let me thank you for all that you have given me, done for me, and promised me. And let me please find the ability to mean it. Help me to be truly grateful, even though right now I don't feel it. Please work some miracles in my life, Lord. Give me the ability to keep pressing forward, to continue striving, to continue the race, even if I feel I've completely depleted my endurance and ability to cope. I am so weak, Lord, help me to rely on you in my weakness. And forgive me when I whine.
Through Christ I pray, amen.
